希望会不会永远。。。

希望会不会永远。。。

25 April 2010

First Touch with J.J Lin---



Am i dreaming?? 
J.J Lin is just in front of ME!!!
His cute and amazing smiles...
His special voices...
His nice songs...
Made me wanna faint in that moment...
Anyway...I had a chance to hold his hand...
Just a few seconds..
Our eyes interlocked..
In silence...without words..
But I said to him in my heart" I like U very much!!!"









All Toys R Here........


Lets go into the Toy Museum which located at Tanjung Bungah...

30 minutes journey on the Rapid Bus...
I was so glad to see my favorite toys there:Stitch, Mickey, Snoopy, Jack jack, Shrek, Rem and Ryuk(Death Notes), Doremon and Garfield...so much, so much...

 My favorites and cuttest...STITCH~~


I miss u so much...my boyfriend, MICKEY~~

Ryuk


Rem
 


Jack Jack World~~





I LOVE TOYS & CARTOONS...wanna go back to the young age...

24 April 2010

断了线的气球





手中握着一个充满氦气的气球,


气球在手中一直挣扎,


想要往那蔚蓝的上空飞去,


想要紧抓着它不放,


第一次;努力,


第二次;坚持,


第三次;为什么要勉强呢?


让它得到自由吧!




气球就是我的目标,


我一直都努力的去坚持,


不让失去一直以来的目标,


可是,我并没有好好地把握每一次的机会,


第一次的努力;白费,


第二次的坚持;失去自信,


第三次;失望,放弃。




我想像一个无忧无虑的气球,


没有自主地飞。。。






19 April 2010

给关心我的人>>



不知道你是否知道从前的我是个怎样的人?

我其实有个非常脆弱的心、

脸皮非常地薄、

自尊心非常地弱、

自卑、

妒嫉心非常地强、

不善于交际且不善于表达自己的人。

当我看到有人比我厉害时,

我的妒嫉心就会开始燃烧,

然后就会不断给自己压力,

不断提醒自己一定要比他更好。

可是,当我失败时,我就会很失落,

很自卑,

就会想为什么我不能比他好?

当我遇到新朋友时,

不懂得观察人,

也不懂得如何了解人的我就会以沉默面对眼前的新朋友。

我应该说什么呢?

我不知道他的喜好,

要是我说错了什么而伤害了别人,

那该怎么办?

那时我的心就会自然而然的封闭、自卫。

这就是我。

一个一无是处、不自量力又书呆的张思恩。




真正幸福的家



大姐经历了她人生中最大的教训。

我非常谢谢她。

因为她,因为那件事,让我看到了我们真正的家。

大姐出事了,爸爸和你最困扰而且最伤心。让我看见原来你们是多么的在乎我们,原来你对我们的期望是多么的高。

大姐出事了,没有一人睡得安宁,在远方的我也是一样。让我看见原来大家是多么的在乎大姐,多么关心大姐。不管从前发生了什么事,都在那一刻完完全全的消失,剩下的就是那一片关心。阿迪也开始放开他对大姐的成见,开始关心大姐了。

大姐出事了,她自己最伤心不过。她痛哭,对我哭诉了不知好几遍。让我看见原来霸道、我行我素的大姐其实是多么的脆弱,那么的不堪一击。大姐出事了,我竟然哭了,心痛了。让我知道原来我并没有讨厌大姐,我也那么的在乎她。

家里出事了,每一个家庭成员都不开心,都互相帮助,互相安慰,互相关心,这就是我看到的真正的家。

真正幸福的家。。。

请原谅大姐吧!我知道你从来就没有怪她。

你大声地骂她,是要骂醒她,而且这是你发泄情绪的方式。

这我了解,我会尊重你的。

我知道你对大姐的期望非常高,我知道你最在乎她,我知道你最信任她。

我怎样都不能代替她在你心中的位置。不管怎样,请你饶恕她吧!

她哭着对我说,她很后悔,她非常地对不起你。。我想这已经足够的表示她对你的爱,那永远的爱。。

My Family Loves ME!!!

A happy and lovely family...

戴着面具的世界




世界上真的有好多种人。人总会贪恋,妒嫉,怀恨。
人难做,难做人,做人难。
生活就是一场戏,人人都戴着面具,在别人面前伪装真实的自己
人不可貌相,那,要用什么方法才能看清楚一个人的真面目?
背叛时常在我们之间发生。要怎样去相信那个人是真心地对待你?
我越来越觉得这是世界充满了险恶。有人说世界上最可怕的就是人类。
我很同意这个说法。
不知道要如何相信一个人呢?是不是自己太单纯了?
我就像是一个无助的孩子,在钢筋水泥的森林,寻找一种叫幸福。


 人到底有多少张面具?



 揭开面具后的模样是险恶的吗?

10 October 2009

A Special Mid-Autumn Festival


The Legend of Chang-Er
Director: Cheang Si En
Vice Director: Raymond Teh
Narrator: May Jean, Kah Wei
Background Music: Shee Yen, Si En
Main Characters:
Hou Yi - Chang Yue
Chang-er - Hui Wen
The Jade Emperor - Guan Heng
The Royal Goddess - Kar Man
Chang-er’s maid -Hoi San
Villagers - Kai Way, Sue Ching, Chui Ying, Shee Yen, Raymond
10 suns -Owi, Shiao Mei, Kar Man, Lina, Kelly
Subordinates - Sue Ching, Veng Shie, Raymond, Ing Ding, Shee Yen
The story begins around 2170 B.C. after the great flood in the Hsia dynasty. (Villagers - Kai Way, Sue Ching, Chui Ying cries help) Yu, king of many kingdoms, is credited with stopping the flood, and with teaching farmers how to cultivate their fields, thus commencing a prosperous epoch.
(Jade Emperor - Guan Heng sits on stage, Subordinate – Raymond goes in)
At the same time, in Heaven, the Jade Emperor wishes to help the farmers raise animals and cultivate their fields. He gives orders to his ten sons (Owi, Shiao Mei,Kar Man, Lina and Kelly come in) to become ten suns and travel across the sky one at a time, each taking one day. However, the ten young men disobeyed. All ten of them come out every day, and the heat from ten suns shining all at once, making the earth intolerably hot!
(Villagers - Raymond, Shee Yan, Kai Way act kelian)
People and animals died of heat, rivers dried up, land becomes barren and forests scorches and burns. The farmers prayed (kneel & bai bai), giving sacrifices and burning incense to Heaven for deliverance.
Hou Yi is a great archer and brought his magic bow with him. (Hou Yi - Yue walks in with courage) Seeing how much suffering and destruction caused by the heat of the ten suns, Hou Yi climbs to the top of Tienshan mountain and begins negotiating with the suns to have pity on the unfortunate people. He takes out his magic bow and arrows, shoots down nine of the suns accurately (Yue shoots) Hou Yi leaves the last sun to live to separate night from day. Since then, the people of the clans proclaim him to be their leader. (Villagers adore/take chairs out of scene) Finally, the earth is at peace and people enjoy their work and lives.
(actors in positions, pause a while)
After becomes the leader of the clans, Hou Yi fell in love with a beautiful lady, Chang-er and took her as his wife. (Yue, Hui Wen walk in, chit-chat) However, he feels overwhelmed with power and starts being violent and drunk. In his drunkenness, he treats the people cruelly. (pushes Sue Ching, drags Hoi San out)
At the same time, Hou Yi is told that the Royal Goddess resides on top of Kunlun Mountain and has a pill of immortality. Hou Yi gives an order to his subordinates to climb up the Kunlun Mountain. After searching and searching, finally, the subordinates found the Royal Goddess and begged the Royal Goddess for the pill of immortality. (beg ah beg) The Goddess, taking pity on them, give them the one remaining pill.
Instantly after retrieve the pill, the subordinates head back to Hou Yi and tell the majesty that the pill had to be taken exactly on the 15th night of the eighth month when the moon was fullest. Hou Yi is very happy and keeps it in a save box. (keeps the pill) Without knowing, Chang-er accidentally heard the conversation about the pill.
In order to prevent Hou Yi from threatening the people of clans, Chang-er sneaked in to Hou Yi’s room. (walks in silently) She hesitates for a while and decides to sacrifice herself by swallowing the whole pill. Suddenly, Hou Yi comes in to the room without her expectation. (Yue comes in) Chang-er is shocked by the presence of Hou Yi and swallows the pill immediately. (eat the pill) Instantly, she feels her body becoming lighter, slowly rising upwards and towards the sky. (Hui Wen flies)
This myth passes on generation by generation. Each year on the 15th day of the eighth month, when the moon is at its fullest and brightest, family unites to sit under the moon, trying to see the image of a beautiful maiden.
(everyone-Happy Mid-Autumn Festival)
Chang-Er and her maid
The ten suns---SO HOT!!!!!!


Luckily...Hou Yi comes to SAVE US!!!


YEAH!!!!I'm the KING NOW!!!!!


GO DIE LAA!!!

Going to FLY.........

Hou Yi and Chang-Er
Happy Mid-Autumn Festival
OH NO!!!!I'm going to die........
Xiao Family 1MT3
copyrighted @1MT3

7 October 2009

Last Day of Life

If there is only 24 hours left in your life, what will you do at that moment???My mind was blanked when someone asked me as I never thought about it before…Never ever thought about it…Because I scared of dying…I do not want to leave this world, I do not want to leave my parents, my family and my friends…There are so many wonderful memories that make me can’t just leave like that…I have many things, many wishes that have not come true-- travelling throughout the world.

If I’m given last day in my life, honestly, I’ll flick through the photo album and reminisce over the nice memories in my life and remember all the people that I know. For me, the most important thing in my life is family, second is education and third is love.

Do you ever think of where you will go when you are dead???This is a scary question for me…In this 20th century, with all advanced technology, we still not able to explain where people will go when they are dead, we still cannot confirm is there a heaven and hell in the world…We will never get an answer as nobody come back to tell you where did they go, how is that place…

Everything in the world will not last long as well as human. I believe there are heaven and hell. If we behave very well before dead, we will go to heaven. If we are bad, then we will be sent to the hell. It’s like a cycle that everyone must go through this ordeal.

Do you ever think of suicide???Honestly, I had think of it, but as I said I have many things not yet finish, so I’m still survive until now…Once I think of dying, stress and pressure make me cannot breathe. Sadness and depression make me give up and heading to suicide. However, I’m rational. At least I think of my parents, I imagined how sad of them if they know I suicide.

Unprecedented National Day'09


It was a rainy day and we were all freezing in the bus which heading to Putrajaya for the rehearsal of National day 2009. I’m very unwilling to go for this useless rehearsal which do not means anything to me but there is no choice for me. Putrajaya really caught my eyes whereby the buildings there were so beautiful especially the bridge. It was very familiar to me as I came before for the interview of JPA scholarships. Around 1pm, we reached our destinations---B27apartment.


There were crowds which were from different colleges and a group of nurses checking everyone’s body temperature in order to prevent the spread of A (H1N1). I was “tagged” as a safe and healthy one: p..Hehe…I was “lucky” to be chosen as the leader of the room and “lucky” to be scolded by the “most gentle” lecturer in our college. Ok…never mind…calm down…she was fasting now…ok…be patient…So…10 of us were given the “best” room---L4U4 which the door gate needed half an hour to open by 2 person. After the briefing from lecturer, we went to collect our bag, cap that were sponsor by the government and the “most unique” baju kurung that I never seen before.
At that night, we went to the playground of the apartment and we snapped our childish faces there. I missed a lot as I was so “lucky” to be chosen for the briefing from the officers. Never mind…unless I still enjoyed very much with the “Mafia Game” before we slept.


4am in the morning (crazy) we woke up, 4.30am, we ate breakfast (I can’t eat anything else), 5am, we “rampas” bus to travel to the Parliament. 5.30-7am, freezing in the bus. 7-9.30am, waving flags like crazy people…9.30-10am, WALK back to where the buses parked. 10.30-12.30pm, sleep like pig...zzz…1-4.30pm, everyone sleep again except me, talking to the wall…At night, Dominos Pizza from May Jean’s parents!!Yeah!!T.T....thx …

Next morning…raining…we all gather at the car park and we captured all our memories. In the afternoon, we had rehearsal again. I began to feel dizzy now…..At night, we having egg tarts, “sao pau” and lime juice from May Jean’s parents again…thank you very much…your parents are so”wei da”…x.x…






A countdown ceremony is held outside the apartment. We gather together and taking photos non-stopping. We also have Andres as our “posing director”…..omg...so cute…I would never forget today as this was my first time to countdown for national day, the first time countdown with so many friends around. I remembered we formed a 14 verticals star with our fingers… Unprecedented!!!We sang the patriotic songs as loud as we can. We also sang birthday song to those who born on 31 August. 5, 4, 3, 2, 1…MERDEKA!! Even though there were no fireworks, but we enjoyed ourselves very much…A memorable day ended at 2am in the next morning…







4.30am, everyone still in their dreams, unwilling to wake up. 5.30am, we rushed for the bus and we reached the Parliament at 7am. There were crowds with different traditional clothes and a lot of (journalist) taking photos as well as we came down the bus. I was so happy and HIGH!!!as I never faced such situations..I stood in front of the roadside with my friends. 4 of us were so HIGH!! We waved the flags and said Hi to the ministers who passed by. We successfully “attract” a lot of cameras oo…





We sang National songs and shouted the slogan”Rakyat didahulukan, Pencapaian diutamakan”as loud as we can. At the same time, we could heard 14 sounds of boom which symbolizes the 14 states in Malaysia. At the end, we took chances to say “GOODBYE” and shook hand with the ministers, and we finally saw Agong and our Prime Minister-Dato Seri Najib. Apart from that, we also took photos with some tourists from other countries…Feel so GOOOD!!!
Finally I had to say BYE to Putrajaya…how long I have to wait to come here again??Now I know how much fun I can found here…now I know how lucky I am…I hope that next year i can represent the school to come here again…

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