Last Day of Life

If there is only 24 hours left in your life, what will you do at that moment???My mind was blanked when someone asked me as I never thought about it before…Never ever thought about it…Because I scared of dying…I do not want to leave this world, I do not want to leave my parents, my family and my friends…There are so many wonderful memories that make me can’t just leave like that…I have many things, many wishes that have not come true-- travelling throughout the world.

If I’m given last day in my life, honestly, I’ll flick through the photo album and reminisce over the nice memories in my life and remember all the people that I know. For me, the most important thing in my life is family, second is education and third is love.

Do you ever think of where you will go when you are dead???This is a scary question for me…In this 20th century, with all advanced technology, we still not able to explain where people will go when they are dead, we still cannot confirm is there a heaven and hell in the world…We will never get an answer as nobody come back to tell you where did they go, how is that place…

Everything in the world will not last long as well as human. I believe there are heaven and hell. If we behave very well before dead, we will go to heaven. If we are bad, then we will be sent to the hell. It’s like a cycle that everyone must go through this ordeal.

Do you ever think of suicide???Honestly, I had think of it, but as I said I have many things not yet finish, so I’m still survive until now…Once I think of dying, stress and pressure make me cannot breathe. Sadness and depression make me give up and heading to suicide. However, I’m rational. At least I think of my parents, I imagined how sad of them if they know I suicide.

Unprecedented National Day'09

It was a rainy day and we were all freezing in the bus which heading to Putrajaya for the rehearsal of National day 2009. I’m very unwilling to go for this useless rehearsal which do not means anything to me but there is no choice for me. Putrajaya really caught my eyes whereby the buildings there were so beautiful especially the bridge. It was very familiar to me as I came before for the interview of JPA scholarships. Around 1pm, we reached our destinations---B27apartment.

There were crowds which were from different colleges and a group of nurses checking everyone’s body temperature in order to prevent the spread of A (H1N1). I was “tagged” as a safe and healthy one: p..Hehe…I was “lucky” to be chosen as the leader of the room and “lucky” to be scolded by the “most gentle” lecturer in our college. Ok…never mind…calm down…she was fasting now…ok…be patient…So…10 of us were given the “best” room---L4U4 which the door gate needed half an hour to open by 2 person. After the briefing from lecturer, we went to collect our bag, cap that were sponsor by the government and the “most unique” baju kurung that I never seen before.

At that night, we went to the playground of the apartment and we snapped our childish faces there. I missed a lot as I was so “lucky” to be chosen for the briefing from the officers. Never mind…unless I still enjoyed very much with the “Mafia Game” before we slept.

4am in the morning (crazy) we woke up, 4.30am, we ate breakfast (I can’t eat anything else), 5am, we “rampas” bus to travel to the Parliament. 5.30-7am, freezing in the bus. 7-9.30am, waving flags like crazy people…9.30-10am, WALK back to where the buses parked. 10.30-12.30pm, sleep like pig...zzz…1-4.30pm, everyone sleep again except me, talking to the wall…At night, Dominos Pizza from May Jean’s parents!!Yeah!!T.T....thx …

Next morning…raining…we all gather at the car park and we captured all our memories. In the afternoon, we had rehearsal again. I began to feel dizzy now…..At night, we having egg tarts, “sao pau” and lime juice from May Jean’s parents again…thank you very much…your parents are so”wei da”…x.x…

A countdown ceremony is held outside the apartment. We gather together and taking photos non-stopping. We also have Andres as our “posing director”…..omg...so cute…I would never forget today as this was my first time to countdown for national day, the first time countdown with so many friends around. I remembered we formed a 14 verticals star with our fingers… Unprecedented!!!We sang the patriotic songs as loud as we can. We also sang birthday song to those who born on 31 August. 5, 4, 3, 2, 1…MERDEKA!! Even though there were no fireworks, but we enjoyed ourselves very much…A memorable day ended at 2am in the next morning…

4.30am, everyone still in their dreams, unwilling to wake up. 5.30am, we rushed for the bus and we reached the Parliament at 7am. There were crowds with different traditional clothes and a lot of (journalist) taking photos as well as we came down the bus. I was so happy and HIGH!!!as I never faced such situations..I stood in front of the roadside with my friends. 4 of us were so HIGH!! We waved the flags and said Hi to the ministers who passed by. We successfully “attract” a lot of cameras oo…

We sang National songs and shouted the slogan”Rakyat didahulukan, Pencapaian diutamakan”as loud as we can. At the same time, we could heard 14 sounds of boom which symbolizes the 14 states in Malaysia. At the end, we took chances to say “GOODBYE” and shook hand with the ministers, and we finally saw Agong and our Prime Minister-Dato Seri Najib. Apart from that, we also took photos with some tourists from other countries…Feel so GOOOD!!!

Finally I had to say BYE to Putrajaya…how long I have to wait to come here again??Now I know how much fun I can found here…now I know how lucky I am…I hope that next year i can represent the school to come here again…