Homesick...

Everyone is talking about going home soon...Home, a very comfortable place that fulled of love. Do u homesick now??I am desperate to go home to meet my lovely parents, my darling siblings and my dear friends...I miss u all so much...

Almost three months, I left home, left my parents...Do I still remember hows my house look like??Do I still recognize my parents' faces??Feeling scare...I scared my leaving will made me forget about everything in my hometown...Distance really made a change in my mind...

Homesickness...For me, honestly, I don't really feel homesick for my hometown...I miss them,but I do not feel homesick...Why do I have such kind of weird feelings??I think it is because I have fall in love in this place...Here, a free and relaxing place...like heaven??I love freedom, love relaxation...No stress, no pressure...But I do not mean that my home fulled of stress and pressure...Just wanna say that I love my life here... 

A feeling of missing home and a feeling of missing here...I do not want to leave either places...Missing you...

Real Si En

Can i know who am I??

Look at the reflection of mine in the mirror,it was a horror to me. I had changed a lot. Not physically changed, but mentally changed, changing drastically...

Once before, I was just a noob, who will only concentrate on study without caring about what was happening around me. Everyday, every hours, every minutes even every seconds, my eyes never leave the books. Examinations was very important to me at that time as I knew if I did not do well in exams, then I will fail in the competition to get top 1 in class. My mind was fulled of memorised texts and words. A very noob and nerd bookworm...:p

Now??A great change in  my mind...Exam is on, but I am no longer like me before, 24 hours facing books...yet 24 hours facing laptop, fb-ing, sdo-ing, blogging...Since when I become so lazy??Since when exams is not first thing in my mind??Since when I changed to become like this??

Where is the Si En before??Should I find her back or should I let her go??

Who can answer these questions??

Standing in front of the mirror, 

I'm wondering who is the real Si En... 

And maybe this is the answer...